I Hate You

I love you but you don't behave the way I want to see you, you don't treat me right in my view. You leave without kissing me good-bye dropping a line about some late night meeting at work. Yes, your work is specific and late night meetings are quite possible, however, I'm starting to getting so paranoid and doubtful regarding your feelings towards me that I feel there's more to these 'meetings' than meets my doubtful eye.

What is even more outrageous, you don't give me any reassurances of the fact that your love is true and its fire is burning like it did before! When was the last time you gave me flowers, said you loved me? Don't remember? Neither do I! Sometimes the whole thing – my uncertainties, fears and these nasty doubts are so unbearably impossibly pressuring that I'm starting to think that I really hate you! I realize that hatred is close to love, but that's not what I want from our relationship which used to be harmonious.

These are the thoughts of a person who is overwhelmed by doubts regarding her love and relationship. Indeed, sometimes these doubts are so exhausting and maddening for a person's mind and soul, that they practically drive one crazy in a negative sense of these words. And yes, they can really make you think you truly hate your soul mate. The advice is invariably the same – stay calm till you back up your doubts either with vital reassurances or with bitter but true disappointments. Hatred is much better than indifference anyway.